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Beyond Girlhood: Lolita, Motherhood and the Right to Remain Yourself
An editorial on ageing, motherhood and the right to keep a self-authored Lolita wardrobe beyond the narrow expectations of girlhood.
THE QUESTION
Why are women expected to grow out of the things they once loved?
Marriage changes how a woman is expected to dress.
Motherhood changes it again.
Age changes it once more.
Somewhere between childhood and adulthood, many women receive an invisible instruction:
Grow up.
Dress differently.
Look more mature.
Be more practical.
Become less conspicuous.
But Lolita fashion creates a strange interruption in this progression.
A woman can become a wife.
She can become a mother.
She can build a career.
She can raise a child.
And she can still wear lace, ribbons, petticoats and elaborate dresses.
This raises a question much larger than fashion:
Who decides what an adult woman is allowed to look like?
INSIDE THIS STORY
01
The Girlhood We Were Told to Leave Behind
Why “growing up” often means abandoning visible forms of girlhood.
02
When the Dress Came Back
How Lolita became connected to recovery and self-recognition.
03
The Mother Who Looked Different
What happens when motherhood meets pink hair, lace and petticoats.
04
From Outsider to Influencer
How personal difference became social influence.
05
The New Femininity
When empowerment and beauty standards become impossible to separate.
06
Can You Grow Older in Lolita?
The anxiety behind the question of age.
07
Beyond Girlhood
What Lolita tells us about being a woman.
THE RESEARCH
This editorial is inspired by Kexin Feng's research at Kyoto University into the relationship between femininity and girlishness among adult Lolita participants in China.
THE GIRLHOOD WE WERE TOLD TO LEAVE BEHIND
What if adulthood was never supposed to mean abandoning girlhood?
There is a familiar story about growing up.
A girl becomes a woman.
She leaves school.
She gets a job.
She falls in love.
She gets married.
Perhaps she becomes a mother.
And somewhere along the way, the ribbons become smaller.
The dresses become simpler.
The colors become quieter.
The things that once felt “girlish” are gradually placed into a box labeled:
TOO YOUNG.
But the women in Feng's research complicate this story.
For some Chinese Lolita participants, girlhood was not necessarily remembered as a completely free period of self-expression.
Academic competition, family expectations and conventional ideas about femininity shaped how young women understood themselves.
Girls were expected to succeed.
To study.
To become capable.
To become respectable.
But they were also expected to become beautiful.
The result was a contradiction.
Be successful.
But remain feminine.
Be independent.
But remain desirable.
Lolita enters this contradiction as an unusual form of self-expression.
For some women, it becomes a way of recovering a version of femininity they feel they never fully experienced.
Not necessarily childhood.
Not necessarily innocence.
But possibility.
PERFORMANCE
versus
EXPRESSION
WHEN THE DRESS CAME BACK
The moment a forgotten identity returned
One of the most striking stories in Feng's research is the life history of a woman identified as K.
K encountered Lolita through her professional environment.
At first, it was simply something she enjoyed.
Then life changed.
She left her job.
She married.
She became a mother.
Her everyday life increasingly revolved around domestic responsibilities and childcare.
During this period, she experienced a difficult emotional state associated with the transition into motherhood.
Then one day, an old part of her life returned.
A friend invited her to go out.
K wanted to dress up.
She opened her wardrobe.
And found her Lolita clothes.
She put one on.
She looked into the mirror.
The significance of that moment was not simply aesthetic.
The dress reminded her that another version of herself still existed.
A person with preferences.
Desires.
Energy.
Possibilities.
A person who had not disappeared simply because she had become a mother.
I AM STILL HERE.
THE MIRROR
For K, the mirror became more than a place to check appearance.
It became a place of recognition.
She could see a version of herself that had been temporarily obscured by the demands of adult life.
A DRESS CAN HOLD A MEMORY
I AM STILL HERE.
Clothing can become a material memory of who we once were — and who we still want to become.
THE MOTHER WHO LOOKED DIFFERENT
Motherhood has an invisible dress code.
A mother should look practical.
A mother should appear responsible.
A mother should prioritize her child.
A mother should not appear excessively concerned with being young.
Nobody necessarily says these rules aloud.
But they exist.
K encountered this invisible dress code when she began wearing Lolita while participating in activities with her child.
Pink hair.
Elaborate clothing.
A conspicuous silhouette.
Other mothers noticed.
The question underneath those looks was simple:
“Is this what a mother is supposed to look like?”
China's contemporary culture has already produced a newer image of motherhood:
THE “HOT MOM”
The Hot Mom can be:
beautiful.
stylish.
fit.
well-dressed.
confident.
She can remain attractive after becoming a mother.
But Lolita goes further.
It does not simply ask whether a mother can remain beautiful.
It asks whether she can remain visibly herself.
The difference is subtle but important.
A stylish mother can still fit within conventional femininity.
A Lolita mother may challenge the entire expectation of what maturity should look like.
She is not trying to disappear into motherhood.
She is making another identity visible at the same time.
CULTURAL EXPECTATIONS — NOT RULES
FROM OUTSIDER TO INFLUENCER
When difference becomes social capital
K's story changed again when she returned to work.
Her unusual appearance was no longer simply something that attracted attention.
It became part of her identity.
Her experience with Lolita helped her connect with younger colleagues and online audiences.
She began sharing her life on social media.
Fashion was only one part of the story.
The larger message was:
THERE ARE MANY WAYS TO LIVE AFTER BECOMING A MOTHER.
By 2023, K had accumulated nearly 200,000 followers according to Feng's research.
Something remarkable had happened.
The woman who once looked “different” had become someone other people wanted to watch.
Her difference became her credibility.
Her unconventional appearance became part of her influence.
Her life became evidence that adulthood did not have to follow a single script.
200,000
Nearly 200,000 followers
The personal became public. The unconventional became influential.
WHAT DOES “YOUNG” REALLY MEAN?
K's understanding of youth is more complicated than appearance.
Youth can mean:
curiosity
energy
confidence
enthusiasm
the willingness to try something new
the belief that another future is possible
This creates another definition of girlishness.
Not:
LOOKING LIKE A GIRL.
But:
FEELING THAT LIFE IS STILL OPEN.
THE BEAUTY TRAP
When empowerment and beauty become impossible to separate
There is a contradiction at the heart of adult Lolita.
The fashion can be liberating.
But liberation does not automatically mean escaping social expectations.
K challenges the idea that motherhood should erase individuality.
Yet her version of individuality remains connected to beauty, youth and appearance.
This creates a double message.
“You do not have to disappear when you become a mother.”
But also:
“Stay beautiful enough to remain visible.”
Those messages can exist at the same time.
Modern femininity often presents beauty as empowerment.
Take care of yourself.
Invest in yourself.
Dress for yourself.
Stay youthful.
Feel confident.
The language is liberating.
But the work remains.
Beauty requires time.
Money.
Attention.
Maintenance.
Consumption.
And eventually, aging enters the picture.
IS CHOOSING BEAUTY ALWAYS FREEDOM?
Perhaps the problem is not beauty itself.
The problem begins when beauty becomes a requirement disguised as a choice.
Lolita allows women to construct an extremely personal visual identity.
But it can also make appearance highly visible.
The dress says:
Look at me.
Society answers:
How old are you?
The wearer says:
This is who I am.
Society asks:
How long can you keep doing this?
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CAN YOU GROW OLDER IN LOLITA?
The question is not whether Lolita has an official age limit.
It doesn't.
The deeper question is:
WHEN DO WE START FEELING TOO OLD FOR OURSELVES?
K experienced this uncertainty.
Perhaps one day the dress should become more restrained.
Perhaps the colors should become darker.
Perhaps a mature woman should choose a more “appropriate” silhouette.
No one has to physically stop her.
The restriction can happen internally.
This is how social expectations become powerful.
We begin to enforce them ourselves.
The most interesting possibility of adult Lolita may therefore be not simply:
“I can still dress like this.”
But:
“I can allow myself to change without abandoning myself.”
A woman can grow older.
Her style can change.
Her body can change.
Her priorities can change.
And she can still remain connected to the part of herself that first loved Lolita.
BEYOND GIRLHOOD
Maybe “growing up” was the wrong question.
Perhaps the question is not:
Why do adult women still want to look like girls?
Perhaps the better question is:
Why did we assume that adulthood required them to stop?
A woman does not become less intelligent because she wears bows.
She does not become less responsible because she wears lace.
She does not become less capable because her clothes are elaborate.
Motherhood does not erase the person who existed before motherhood.
And adulthood does not have to mean abandoning every aesthetic associated with youth.
But there is another question worth asking.
If women are finally free to remain beautiful, feminine and youthful—
ARE THEY ALSO FREE TO AGE?
Can a woman choose Lolita without being required to look young?
Can she remain feminine without having to be beautiful?
Can she be a mother without proving that she is selfless?
Can she be attractive without turning attractiveness into another obligation?
These questions go beyond Lolita.
They belong to every woman negotiating the distance between who society expects her to be and who she wants to become.
YOU DON'T HAVE TO GROW OUT OF YOURSELF.
THE RESEARCH BEHIND THE STORY
KEXIN FENG
Kyoto University, Graduate School of Education
This editorial was inspired primarily by Kexin Feng's study:
“Relation Between Femininity and Girlishness: The Life Story of ‘Adult Lolita’”
Published in:
Kyoto University Graduate School of Education Research Bulletin, Vol. 70, 2024, pp. 135–148.
The research examines the relationship between femininity and girlishness among adult Lolita participants in China.
The central life-history case is an anonymized Chinese Lolita influencer identified as K.
Through interviews, online observation and life-history analysis, the research explores:
marriage
motherhood
work
postpartum emotional difficulties
beauty
aging
social expectations
consumption
social media
personal identity
The research does not present Lolita as simply “empowering” or “oppressive.”
Instead, it reveals a more complicated relationship.
Lolita can provide women with a way to resist restrictive expectations surrounding motherhood and adulthood.
At the same time, this form of self-expression can remain connected to contemporary expectations surrounding beauty, youth and consumption.
The contradiction is precisely what makes adult Lolita culturally interesting.
EDITOR'S NOTE
Lolita is often introduced to outsiders through its visual appearance:
lace,
bows,
petticoats,
dresses,
platform shoes,
and elaborate accessories.
But fashion becomes culturally interesting when we ask what people are doing with it.
What identities are being negotiated?
What expectations are being challenged?
What pressures remain?
And what happens when a woman refuses to disappear into a socially approved version of adulthood?
Perhaps the most important thing about Lolita is not that it allows women to look younger.
Perhaps it allows them to remain visible.
